The endless thoughts and random opinions of a single girl
Author: Love and Everyday Affairs
The idea behind this page is to share my opinion and experience in what seems to be a crazy world nowadays.
I look at myself, my friends and acquaintances and hear so many different, yet similar stories… of our search for Love, disappointments, insights.
I wanted to share them!
Considering cultural differences some adjustments had to be made.
Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy writing it!
Do you ever feel like sometimes you are just drained? For whichever reasons it might be…
Sometimes I realize I’m not even writing as frequently as I was before or as frequently as I wished to.
I realize my brain is somewhat overloaded and nothing comes to my mind to write about. And that’s tremendously unusual because it’s something I love doing and I always have something to say about almost everything!
Between ensuring my week goes as smoothly as possible, and getting some fun and social life out there, it seems I’m living my life in auto pilot. And that drives my crazy.
Between managing you car breaking down, getting a rental, thinking if you really need a rental, yes you do need one to go to Abu Dhabi next week, need to go to the supermarket, deal with some stuff for the new apartment, need to go here, there, do this, that… bla bla bla… it never ends.
And sometimes you just want to do nothing, comply with no schedules… you just want to live a bit.
Live in the freedom of doing what you want to do with no imposed restrictions.
I don’t know how people with kids and a family to manage, besides a job, make it! I admire them so much!! It takes courage and so much discipline to do it! You are super humans, really!
But in any case, one does it’s best in understanding these are only phases and they too shall pass until smoother times come along again.
I focus on the amazing things I’ve been accomplishing step by step.
I’m scared somehow they’ll disappear but I keep living in a perspective of building, not losing.
When you keep living the same reality over and over again… When you keep the same routine for years and you know that it’s going to be like that for many more to come. Don’t you feel the calling of something new? Whatever it is! Can be traveling. A new hobby. A new experience. Something you have never had or never done before.
It’s scary sometimes. It’s scary acknowledging that you’ve been living a lifeless life. In the name of what? It’s scary exposing yourself to that harsh reality!
What do you do? Or what do you not do?
I usually regret the “what If?”. I have regretted some things I’ve done. But they allowed me to understand my own boundaries. So I learned something from them.
However… the things I haven’t done… I regret them even more. What if I had tried differently? What made me so comfortable, so used to settling for whatever is? When did I stop aiming for something else? Not better, not worse… just different.
Different moments of our life require different actions. Different dreams. Different choices. Different sides of US.
When did you give up? When did you settle? When did you stop deserving the feeling of excitement? The butterflies in your stomach? The anticipation of something new? That makes you giggle just by thinking of it? Your heart racing? Your palms sweating?
Dare to make the choice of YOU.
Respect everyone else. Don’t step on anyone.
But be brave enough to be you.
Live your life. Not the life others expect from you.
Call me weird, call me crazy, call me arrogant, call me a dreamer, call me whatever… truth is to each person their reality, their way of thinking, their actions.
Human brain and personality are made for more than discussing beautiful shoes, bags (I do love a nice bag!! 🤗😋) and make-up… oh, and Men 😐 anyway, our brain and personality are able to dream of anything.
Curiosity is part of the human spirit. Let it grow, don’t contain it just because other people won’t understand. Surround yourself of people whose spirit is also curious, sharp and understanding.
And talk about atoms&the Big Bang, life after death, aliens, womanly feelings and darkest thoughts, the meaning of friendship and loyalty, and so on!
Surround yourself with people who’ll be happy you’re just a bit weirder than everyone else.
Those are the ones who’ll accept you as you are and accept your flaws.
A friend of mine sent me a video (the one I hope I’m able to post along with this, if I can manage the technology!!!) which made me think for days… it made me think, it made me cry and it made me laugh.
It made me THINK because it’s so true… it’s not fair that our life needs to comply to a time-frame that society defines as successful… in a way it undermines your confidence and belief in yourself.
Who said that in order to be successful you need to have your own business? Who said that unless you buy a house, unless you have a family, unless you have lots of money, unless you have an important position… you are not successful?
What is the measure of Success? Who is so important to judge if your life is successful? Who is so important to judge… YOU? So before you think about everyone else judging your life (and before you think about judging someone else’s)… why don’t you think about YOUR life? What makes you feel successful? How do you see Success? What does it mean to you?
It made me CRY because although your time shouldn’t be rushed by anyone else…sometimes the truth is that your time is there… but your time is waiting for someone else’s time. You just don’t know who.
As an independent woman, living in a foreign country by myself, building whatever little I can, dreaming of my own version of Success… I can tell you that time is passing by. The clock is actually ticking. And you see your chances of getting your own family getting slimmer… the chances of finding a “normal”, interesting, smart, funny and single Man are decreasing as each month goes by… in no time, a month becomes a year. And a year turns into years sooner than you think.
The chances of finding the one who takes your breath away seem farther and farther. Your body is not getting any younger. Your hair is not getting any shinier or stronger (or darker). However… I can also say… your Mind on the other hand… is getting sharper, dreamier and more and more unsettled.
Every now and then Life makes sure you get a glimpse of what it should be like. And also ensures you can’t have it. And you become restless. This restlessness is tiring. You have no way of making it more peaceful. It doesn’t get kinder. You don’t get any kinder with yourself because you simply don’t know how.
In these short glimpses, you learn how amazing it could be. And it’s pure delight. You envision ultimate happiness in a second. But as I said before… Life makes sure you only get a taste. And you respect it.
You secretly pray for that person to be Happy. You secretly pray for him to understand how important his happiness is… what I mean is… let it be meaningful. Someone like that deserves the caring, the sharing and all of you… all of himself. Let it not be to waste.
Let it not be a waste of vibrant, colorful, meaningful LIFE.
Let it not be a waste of your SOUL.
It takes two to Tango. It always takes two to Tango.
And it finally made me LAUGH.
Although your useful time of biological age is going by, you reach the conclusion that it’s definitely not over yet. And that if there’s not a specific time to start, there’s also not a specific time to end.
Some are waiting to start their life. And they feel somewhat empty because they wonder “is this all there is to it”?!
Others may think that because they are long married, with children, with “successful” careers… it’s done. And as much as they feel super proud (as they should be proud for such generous gifts that some can only dream of) many of them feel somewhat empty because they wonder “is this all there is to it”?!
So I thought maybe I really am where I should be because I’m sure this is not all there is to it. The marriage, children, successful career are a Dream… they are proud, amazing, meaningful milestones. I can’t wait to achieve them.
But I’m sure even when I do get every single one of them, every little piece of Happiness they will bring me… there will always be more to live, more to dream and more to achieve. Whatever it is at each stage of My Life.
So regardless of age, of external pressure, of internal pressure… What makes your clock really tick? What gives you the goosebumps? What makes you laugh? What makes you crave for more? What makes you curious? What makes you Feel?
What makes you Meaningful and Alive throughout your life?
I really do wish we can all find out the answers to our questions!…
I wish the Hurricane of thoughts within our brains may one day find its Sunshine.
PS – and no, Sharing is not Caring… not when it comes to your Man! 😛
And just because it’s Easter Time, let us celebrate the time of Love and getting together.
Even far from Home and Family, you do what you can to spend some time with meaningful people.
People who make everything seem better, happier and easier. Surround yourself with those who make a difference in your life, those who connect with you. Those who make your time worth while.
To those whom I wish they were here, I send all my Love!
Love and Everyday Affairs 