Huhhhh… have you ever felt like this or is it just me? 😅

Why do they have to say everything you want to hear and act as if they’re really trying hard to get you?

They are fully in it, they look you in the eye, they do anything to get your attention and commitment.

Until you actually make them a priority. Until you decide you actually care for them and are willing to try.

That’s the day they change.

That’s the day when it all becomes too much.

The silence starts.

The excuses begin.

It doesn’t matter what they said or what they’ve done to ensure you’d see yourself with them.

They build it.

The image, the environment, the feeling of trust and connection. The expectation.

When you finally believe it… you are critiqued because you’re all in.

Is it completely irrelevant they created the idea of “all in”?

How could you tell it was a lie?

How would you know it was a fake when it made you feel so good?

You start questioning yourself…

Did you imagine everything that’s been said and done?

Did you dream it?

So then, it’s your fault for wanting too much.

Too much pressure all of the sudden.

Silence. Distance.

The worst of all, indifference.

That person who went on and beyond to make you see them, connect with them… is now a perfect stranger.

So it all starts over.

Ctrl, Alt, Del. Restart.

Turn into a computer to delete the words.

Erase the actions.

Pretend it never happened.

Make it meaningless.

How easy is that?

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If Love isn’t supposed to be intense, then what is?

Out of all the feelings, Love is definitely the strongest, the silliest and the one that makes you shake the most… literally.

Your legs shake, your hands sweat, the butterflies in your belly, the electricity, the lack of reasoning, the trembled words… yes… it’s the most intense of all.

But still it’s the one everyone tries to tone down.

As it’s too intense.

So maybe we can only all “like” each other and keep ourselves “reasonably” safe, rather than falling in love and flying.

I’m sorry. I Love.

I want to Love.

Especially if I’m given reasons for it.

Apologies for the inconvenience.

One day someone will be as crazy as me, with me.

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Welcome to the season❣️

The season of Love, Family, togetherness.

And how ironic it is that it’s also the season of family drama and pain you don’t want to face.

Because everything looks so perfect.

And yet, families broken apart, absent loved ones, cut ties, make it one of the most painful seasons ever.

You see Love all around the surface that surrounds you.

But deep down, the hidden pictures in your brain, the ugly unspoken truths, unsettle your restless mind.

The loneliness, the wishful thinking that hasn’t materialized, the human fragilities all emerge in invisible silence.

You take whatever you can get.

It’s not perfect but in the end, if you have someone in your family whom you want to spend time during the holidays, do it.

You only realize how much you miss them when you can’t be around them.

Particularly in Christmas.

Regardless of all the peculiarities of the season, for me, it’s still a magical season.

So, I do make my own Christmas tree.

It comforts me somehow.

It quiets me gently in trusting that something good will follow.

It’s like it impersonates some kind of good will and hope.

So I go with it.

And I make it a point of always having my little bit of private Christmas Time.

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“Control your emotions”… emotions are those little bastards that mostly lead you into wrong decisions or wrong ways to deal with the consequences of those wrong decisions.

However… we are not robots and we feel.

A lot.

All the time.

It’s tiring and self-consuming.

Hence, controlling them is actually an act of self-love and self-preservation.

Avoiding them though will only make them stay longer deep within your soul.

Pretending you’re happy all the time won’t bring you the happiness you’re looking for.

Being positive and pretending to be happy all the time are two different things.

You can be in a state of unhappiness, of difficult times, but understanding and hoping that it will get better.

If you’re pretending to be happy all the time, when will you deal with with those emotions?

When will you acknowledge them and identify them?

You’ll only be building a think layer of inner conflict.

Allow yourself to feel. Deeply.

Don’t ignore those inner triggers.

Instead, work on them.

Use them to identify what and who you want to BE.

Use them to know yourself.

Bring them to the surface so you can make them lighter and easier to carry.

Co-exist with them, reserve them a place in your brain.

Otherwise, they’ll become heavier, harder to decode and needlessly weighting you down with no apparent explanation and before you know it, it’s slowly destroying you.

Integrate them with the bright light shit and move on, knowing that there’s a place for every emotion.

Do your work.

Grow with it.

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There’s a huge difference between fighting for someone who loves you or fighting for someone to love you!

Fighting for someone who loves you implies reciprocal love.

It’s real.

The feeling is there.

And you know it.

This kind of Love is so rare these days, I’d fight for it with all my heart.

I’d go till the end of the earth.

But… If it’s not mutual, then what exactly would I be fighting for?

For someone who doesn’t love me… I can’t fight for someone who doesn’t want to be loved by me.

Maybe he’s willing to give his love to someone, but not to me.

And therefore, I can’t make him fall in love with me by fighting for him.

Just because I want him to love me.

That’s not fighting for him.

That’s fighting for something that isn’t real.

Subtle but strong difference.

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It’s hard work to put it to practice.

And even more since I can’t really define what it means to “want you”.

Especially when opposed to “want Him” or “want something”.

And even more when you loose track of yourself in the name of chasing something you believe in.

I respect going after what you want.

I respect chasing what feels true to your heart.

But I’m for chasing whatever feels right.

I mean fighting for someone, for instance. You can fight if there’s a margin for it.

Understanding and tolerance, yes.

Being there for support, absolutely.

But if that person is kicking you out, what else will you do?

Crawl at their feet to be stepped on?

So this is where I draw my thin line of love for other and love for myself.

I also think Love doesn’t make you beg.

It’s there to be given, appreciated and received by whom ever is ready for it.

It’s not meant to block you.

It’s not meant to play you.

On that note, I guess that’s what it means to “want you”.

When you become more than the victim, than the unhappy one, than the one longing for someone to make you happy.

No one can make you happy.

If you’re not your full self, there’s always something that will make you distrust, and therefore, not happy.

Let go of the frustration, of the fear of uncertainty.

Make the conscious effort to step away from what makes you feel small.

Own yourself more than you want to own anything else.

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Here’s to Womanhood.

To being a full grown woman.

To women who rule their world.

They crack, they break.

They lower their guns and become the sweetest, caring, loving kittens who long for the cuddles.

But still they know what they want.

And how they want it.

They go for it once they’re sure.

Every independent woman wishes for a reliable, strong, smart and caring man.

But more than wishing for a man she wishes to be self-reliable.

Self made.

It’s not a man’s job to save a woman.

His job is to add value to her mind, body and soul.

She’ll treasure it.

But if not, grown women just need to live up to their own expectations, and no one else’s.

They build themselves as they go.

And then they rebuild.

Remodel.

Reinvent.

Repaint.

Restart.

This picture is reflecting all of that.

Thanks to the lovely super woman who clicked it!

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How many times do you see yourself deeply engulfed in a situation which completely blind sights you?

You’re so wired living in a temporary bubble that you don’t really care about the outcome because you can only feel right here, right now.

Then finally you start settling down, cooling down… and thinking to yourself… let me step back here… what would I tell my friends if they were in this same situation?

How can I see this story from the outside as a viewer rather than the actress?

What would I interpret of it?

How would I envision the end of this movie?

What does my experience tell me?

What does my gut feeling tell me?

They tell you nothing just because you’re full on up in the clouds and there’s nothing you can see clearly.

Step back again.

What if it was happening to a friend and not you?

You finally start reasoning, deconstructing your crazy electricity, turning it to brain process.

Slowly you realize things.

Things you maybe didn’t want to see and especially didn’t want to feel.

You start reframing the whole thing.

And although you clearly know what you need to do, you just can’t.

It’s stronger than you.

Well I say You Can.

You might need help from friends, a therapist, alternative therapies, meditation, the gym, reading, going to the beach, you name it.

The fear of losing something that suddenly became so meaningful is too heavy.

So it’s not an immediate process.

You don’t snap your fingers and boom… done.

Pain is gone, memories are gone!

It’s not magic.

But it’s possible, one day at the time.

You’ll feel it a bit less and less as days go by.

And one day you’ll feel lighter.

As in light weight.

And you’ll feel the light switch on again. But for that to happen, you need to let go.

You need to release yourself from the fear, the insecurity.

You need to break from what makes you numb.

And grow strong again.

Reposition yourself right where you belong: to your energetic, beautiful, full of sunshine bubble.

It takes time.

But you’ll get there.

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Oh Failure… that word no one wants on their mind dictionary… and it’s probably one of the most common experiences of our lives.

Failed relationships, failed friendships, failed jobs, failed plans, failed dreams, failed goals.

Failure hurts.

It hurts your heart, your pride, your ego… and eventually it hurts your soul.

We fail because we believe we can win.

Simple.

We fail because the will to win is stronger than the fear, the bruised ego and the bitterness that follows.

So we go for it.

We take the chance.

We believe in words, promises and acts which fade away and we wonder why we failed again.

But we tried.

Had we not tried and failed?

What if we had been successful?

Taking the fall and getting back up is as important as savoring the win. Don’t forget any win can turn into failure in a heartbeat.

It’s frustrating to acknowledge failure after failure.

It’s painful.

It’s a waste of yourself when you have so much to give, should you be given the opportunity… it’s hard keeping the excitement for new opportunities when you fell again and again.

It’s even harder when you feel you’re not given credit to showcase yourself.

In any sphere of your life.

You can’t really dissociate them because your well being is a Human Being.

It’s a whole piece, although you show different pieces in different moments and circumstances.

So take your time bouncing back from each failure.

And start all over again.

Simply because you can.

You can even start with the wrong reasons but it’s the right ones that will lead you to an outcome.

And a learning.

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You are who you are.

People won’t see the real you.

Some because they don’t want to.

Some because they won’t get a chance.

Some because it’s “too much”… of everything.

So yes, you learn to dim yourself in every context of your life.

You learn through circumstances how to contain yourself.

With lovers, at work, acquaintances… you just slide by.

You learn to cope with it because you also know the right kind of people will want to get to know the real you.

And those, the ones who will bother, are the ones you consider worthy.

You know your own worth.

And you also know not everyone can handle all of you.

And it’s fine.

It’s life making sure the triage is done.

And until that process is complete… be happy!

Be you!

Be that sunshine!

Go to the beach! 🌻🌞🏝☮️💟☯️

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